My Experience As a School Teacher

It's just not easy to become a class teacher. I'm just feeling not good having to handle all those accounts, students' documents, transferred students' folders, etc. It's just like having to clean somebody's room whereas I don't have the mood to clean; I dunno where to place your stuff, I dunno what can I touch, I dunno which I cannot throw, etc. It's just not my... class. I'm just helping a pregnant teacher to settle her class, whereas I have zero information and understanding regarding the students. When I first went to work, my mind shut down. I was stunt, but luckily I regained my composure every time parents came and asked me sort of questions.

I'm currently teaching Standard 3 and 4 in SJK (C) Ladang Harcroft and I'm the class teacher for a class in standard 3. First day... was awful at the beginning. All the teachers were busy, I was completely lost. No teachers direct me what to do, where's the class; everything, I caught up myself. Thanks to Jaclyn and ChongYee, who always keep me updated ;) In Harcroft, we use computer to take their rolls every day. Strangely speaking, the system is on-line based, everything like student's information also well kept in the computer system. In every class, we have a computer and LCD projector with us, which I think is very high-tech@@! Or am I outdated??!

My class has two hyperactive children. The parents of the children talked to me early before the lessons, in the first day itself. They said they're not ready to tell their children about this, and they hope we can understand it, their activeness, naughtiness, etc. OK... I sort of handled this kind of case before, when I was teaching in the kindergarten, but the parents don't have to be worried so much, since their children are way very normal like others. In the kindergarten, two years ago, the hyperactive kid is WORSE than these two particular children. He just lost his mind and paid no attention in the class, disturbed the friends. These two, no big deal. Need a fierce teacher to control.  

I... surprisingly.... like the POWER given. I like the power to control the children in the class. Everything, they must ask me first. Believe it or not, last week, I made two students from my class cried. They can't throw tantrum in the class, they can't disrespect me, they can't make loud noises in the class, they can't speak when I SPEAK. When I count of three "1! ---- 2! ----3!" and whoever hasn't sat down or still talking, one glance, the student must stand up, rigidly and solidly, at his/her own place, as a punishment. So starting from the student, a game starts, he/she just needs to point at any students who make noise in the class, so that he/she can rescue him/herself from standing, then he/she can sit down and it's the named student's turn to stand up. The game continues until I'm soften. Until I'm settled with the school fees. LOL

I need to be a teacher who when putting on a mask, the students could really get terrified by my presence; but when taking off the mask (outside the class), I'm just lovable and approachable. I really love my students. They're so cute when they obey me. I don't want to scold them but scared my softened side might give them a chance to step on me. I know the students are smart, they can tell which teachers can be bullied and which cannot. And I cannot. I think becoming a teacher simply reflects the other side of me, a very serious and bossy me.

Now, I'm buried with students' money. What a huge responsibility I get! Parents just like to get my number in order to keep in touch with their children's improvement, or other reasons which are yet to be discovered. CHONG MEAN SHAN, please learn to say NO to the parents. But how....? I tried to tell them I'm not their permanent class teacher yet they still want my number. Parents, you're just over-worried. I won't give you exact information because I'm always the one who's not well-informed about current activities. I'm not updated. I don't reach school earlier as it's unnecessary. Just don't ask me why.  

I finally decided that I will never want to become a TEACHER. Especially in chinese primary schools. One week, I teach for 33 periods, each period lasts for 30 minutes. I'm so tired. But, I can speak fluent and accurate chinese, I can direct the students properly. I promise myself, no matter how things go wrong, probably I get no mood(?), or I feel tired(?), etc, I will retain my professionalism to be a professional teacher. A teacher who can still teach  VERY WELL despite all the circumstances.

CHILDREN ARE INNOCENT.
DO NOT IGNORE THEM.