I can still smell the fresh of the cake, the moment we took out the cupcakes and vanilla cake from the oven, I can still remember we're so excited about it, smiling and laughing to each other like what baby kids. -Why? I really don't understand. Maybe the problem is really on me but how about you? I thought we can go through the mountainous together, walk across the ocean, watch the sun slowly appears beyond the horizon, enjoy the warmth of the glass, laughing and enjoying and sharing everything together... It's all seemed like what antique memories that soon faded away, and forgotten. Left only the monochromic picture of ours in the head, and our laughing echoed voice.
Of course I know I seldom talk to you these days, you can put the blame on me, but, who started it first? I'm not a typical friend that can accept anyone's new treat another day. Today, you've a marvellous and great mood, so you treat me very good as well. The next day, you've turned out to be moody and you don't want to talk to me (it's fine) but sometime you give vent to me (sort of). I thought you know it? I cannot always stay at one's side, I always walk around, meet new friends and talk. Even my sister gets to be very sick when I'm 'lost' in supermarket or shopping centre. Sorry, I know sometime I really have neglected you, but everyone has own social life and circle, you can't really expect me to always stay at one side and you know I don't like it. I'm trying to be inclusive, because it's what all about to make a really long-lasting friendship.
Sorry, in some case, I couldn't. I tried, but I guess I can't do it.
Where are you the moment I need your consolation? I was waiting, still waiting and waiting. I do care about you, that moment I saw you laughing and having fun with others, I felt happy on you behalf. But on my behalf, I wasn't happy. In many ways, I don't show the real feeling inside, I say "no" actually I mean "yes" - just like you, I thought you understand it? Or I'm the one being wishful?
I don't know whether I should speak to you, or tell you the truth... because you're not that type that talk sorrows to friends. I can't find other way to reach you, sorry, it's pretty public here, but I do hope we can have a chance to have an honest talk. I guess should this message really reached you, you wont tell me your real feeling also? or your opinion to me? I'm getting to be so obsessed with myself, trying any way to make myself busy, trying to escape the fact, hiding - through this way I know I wont think much on this, I know I wont be alone upset, and I know I wont be hurt anymore. Still, never mind, I'm still waiting. Because you're still my friend.
知我者谓我心忧，不知我者谓我何求。
Only @spiding-escape.blogspot.com
Of course I know I seldom talk to you these days, you can put the blame on me, but, who started it first? I'm not a typical friend that can accept anyone's new treat another day. Today, you've a marvellous and great mood, so you treat me very good as well. The next day, you've turned out to be moody and you don't want to talk to me (it's fine) but sometime you give vent to me (sort of). I thought you know it? I cannot always stay at one's side, I always walk around, meet new friends and talk. Even my sister gets to be very sick when I'm 'lost' in supermarket or shopping centre. Sorry, I know sometime I really have neglected you, but everyone has own social life and circle, you can't really expect me to always stay at one side and you know I don't like it. I'm trying to be inclusive, because it's what all about to make a really long-lasting friendship.
Sorry, in some case, I couldn't. I tried, but I guess I can't do it.
Where are you the moment I need your consolation? I was waiting, still waiting and waiting. I do care about you, that moment I saw you laughing and having fun with others, I felt happy on you behalf. But on my behalf, I wasn't happy. In many ways, I don't show the real feeling inside, I say "no" actually I mean "yes" - just like you, I thought you understand it? Or I'm the one being wishful?
I don't know whether I should speak to you, or tell you the truth... because you're not that type that talk sorrows to friends. I can't find other way to reach you, sorry, it's pretty public here, but I do hope we can have a chance to have an honest talk. I guess should this message really reached you, you wont tell me your real feeling also? or your opinion to me? I'm getting to be so obsessed with myself, trying any way to make myself busy, trying to escape the fact, hiding - through this way I know I wont think much on this, I know I wont be alone upset, and I know I wont be hurt anymore. Still, never mind, I'm still waiting. Because you're still my friend.
知我者谓我心忧，不知我者谓我何求。
Only @spiding-escape.blogspot.com
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