The feeling is back. The memory is back with me again this evening. I thought I can fully concentrate on my studies? Until now, it's not the time for only doing a partial revision - it's a complete disappointment. My mind has a mixing thought, not semi solid-liquid; it's more a solid and I wish it's a liquid, evaporates and bubbling away; solid is too hard an object, as hard and sharp as a hedgehog's skin, press and push against my brain, suffocated and finally loses almost part of my spirit.
I'm not a stupid girl. That loses my confident easily and gives way to be manipulated by virtual life after all, that not easily broken down by the tough experience. I really hate her, sometime I would think like that but sometimes being very soft-hearted. She apologized to her for her mistakes, for her next year- so that when meet again, they won't be embarrassed. But, whose fault first? She is being so ridiculously losing her mind off in front of the crowds and scolded her. Shout out loud to this mindless little cow, prown, ugly "I-D-I-O-T !" She wanted to forget the pass, but what seemed to be wrong is that...
I cant forget about it, can I? I caused her to be scolded in public...
I din't know and never ever knew that, my height is being a major problem to him (I think). He keeps ignoring me and though I had rejected many boys, I finally understand the feeling of being INDIRECTLY rejected. I'm so hurt. I've never felt that worse about myself before. I felt like losing confident in myself but now, I'm awake from a dream, a long long virtual dream. And I promised will never have a crush on anyone else, until I've completed my course and will never give way to any guys.
I'm still feeling hurt... It's too cruel to me. I've never felt this worse before.
Hate it!
I'm not a stupid girl. That loses my confident easily and gives way to be manipulated by virtual life after all, that not easily broken down by the tough experience. I really hate her, sometime I would think like that but sometimes being very soft-hearted. She apologized to her for her mistakes, for her next year- so that when meet again, they won't be embarrassed. But, whose fault first? She is being so ridiculously losing her mind off in front of the crowds and scolded her. Shout out loud to this mindless little cow, prown, ugly "I-D-I-O-T !" She wanted to forget the pass, but what seemed to be wrong is that...
I cant forget about it, can I? I caused her to be scolded in public...
I din't know and never ever knew that, my height is being a major problem to him (I think). He keeps ignoring me and though I had rejected many boys, I finally understand the feeling of being INDIRECTLY rejected. I'm so hurt. I've never felt that worse about myself before. I felt like losing confident in myself but now, I'm awake from a dream, a long long virtual dream. And I promised will never have a crush on anyone else, until I've completed my course and will never give way to any guys.
I'm still feeling hurt... It's too cruel to me. I've never felt this worse before.
Hate it!
4 comments:
aww, geez. i'm really sorry for you, sincerely. maybe when we finally realise that rejection; it's time for us to move on?? and for your studies, fret not, i'll keep praying for you. if whenever you feel like breaking down, i have something for you:
MY OBLIGATION IS TO DO THE RIGHT THING. THE REST IS IN GOD'S HANDS.
omg i'm really touched! My sixth sense told me you would leave a comment or something here, I don't know why, you always be there to comfort me. Thanks! Jojie appreciated it :) I promise i will study well, and you promise next year, you must be hardworking and score many A's alright <3
Loves.
haha. my sixth sense ask me to check out your blog, that's coincidence. anyway, will promise you i'll work hard too =) dun too stress la. see ya soon,k??
Sure sweetie :DDD
Loves.
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