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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye and HELLO!

It's my last post here, today, 31st DEC 2011. I wish all my wish comes true that's all. Haha! Do I sound very avaricious, greedy? Nah, just kidding. I shall come back and make my wish on tomorrow morning, and I shall tell you some of them *wink* =D

This year... have been the toughest year to me, in a sense of unable to be the mistress on my own and relationship problems. As you know, even if you don't know, I had enrolled to MSU (Management and Science University) near Putrajaya. The process was successful and I had my own mentor too. Unfortunately, I had some sensitive social problems there, I could not overcome the fear in myself and finally got back to Form 6. My Form 6 friends were unconscious about my leaving because I left them silently. So, I'm not sure how they must feel about me but I'm just pretty sure it isn't a good one, good comment. I totally understand that, that's why I said I'm not my own mistress this year, I can't make decision well, I'm not serious. Following that, I disappoint my parents, especially my dad; at the same time, I nearly freaked my mom when I told her I decided to go back for Form 6, because what she'd heard from her neighbouring friends is that "Form 6 is very tough".

"Form 6 is the world's second most difficult examination."
"Form 6 wastes your life there, two years!"
"Form 6 can't guarantee you."

YOU'RE SO WRONG! Well, the story is to be continued, now can I talk about my relationship problem first? Haha!

It's like a total mess! I was stupid and silly to have a crush on a playboy who was working at the same place with me, it's SuperFun, a kindergarten. I found him interesting and caring, especially to a young guy at his age, who is so passionate and caring for the children. Wait a minute you fool! There's only one young guy there, that's him, how could I compare the other guys around the world with merely him? So, I woke up and smelled the coffee. I learned the truth. By the way, I was playing too...

Five guys go after me, I rejected one because I was sick to dead to see him, he's sissy, girly and irritating;

Another one, I gave my HP number to him, but I rejected him when he's really OVERR, like too much already, his so-sweet words, lazy personality and the way he looked at girl especially me, irritating;

the third one...

Sorry I'm not trying to brag over here, it's my confession time, I never tell anybody, it's good if no one sees this.

The third one, may be will be the most unforgettable one, I have a... serious crush on him, we're sweet at the time then we soon realized we ain't each other cup of tea. Well... it's hurt but, I know I can find a better one.

The fourth one, currently we're still keeping in touch. But I indirectly rejected him because after having so many things happened on me, I think I don't want to get engaged into any relationship. I have everything, I have my lovely family, I find true friendships, I have many luxury and good stuff, I just can't understand to have a better half at the moment because we still can't understand what true love is. We aren't mature enough and I can't see the future in us. I just know, perhaps after all, I still love myself more. I can't share myself with anyone.

The last one, I rejected him directly by asking him :are you kidding me?" LOL!

That's all. Have to be quickly and go for countdown at IOI bollevard now!

Chong Mean Shan is now signing off. HELLO 2012!

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