Had my dinner and I'm drinking a cup of green tea now :)
Flashing back the period during which I had my March EXAM at my school last week, it was all.... a painful memory. First, I was so down on the previous Saturday because I didn't have enough time for my extended writing, at the same time I was totally glued to my "target". Second disappointed case, I screwed my first test - the General Paper (Pengajian Am), for both Paper 1 and 2. They can calculate the Malay Mathematics whereas I cannot. Third heartache-ing case, I asked my friend to reveal the truth since they already asked my specific "target" regarding his opinion on me... He never liked me, he remarked to my friends. He treats me just like a sister. The next day was the Maths Paper 1 and the day when I knew the truth, I couldn't cry. I wanted to cry my heart out but I did not. I was too numb till I was unable to respond. Fourth case, it's regarding the same person again. He only sat beside a girl and talked to her, approached her. When the girl noticed, she finally turned her chair and faced me, in order to talk to me. The moment when she did so, he moved away. The fifth saddening case, he always confuses me. Although he said something like that to my friends, I know they're not as clear as me, I know I can feel him. I just need him to speak honestly, face-to-face to me. So that I know it's true... But, I guess I won't ask for the truth, I'm just too afraid to know.
I should stop thinking about lovey-lovey stuff now, I can... by collapsing myself in the world of school works. I wish he can sms me, he said he wanted to draw a line between us... my heart is aching again...
Flashing back the period during which I had my March EXAM at my school last week, it was all.... a painful memory. First, I was so down on the previous Saturday because I didn't have enough time for my extended writing, at the same time I was totally glued to my "target". Second disappointed case, I screwed my first test - the General Paper (Pengajian Am), for both Paper 1 and 2. They can calculate the Malay Mathematics whereas I cannot. Third heartache-ing case, I asked my friend to reveal the truth since they already asked my specific "target" regarding his opinion on me... He never liked me, he remarked to my friends. He treats me just like a sister. The next day was the Maths Paper 1 and the day when I knew the truth, I couldn't cry. I wanted to cry my heart out but I did not. I was too numb till I was unable to respond. Fourth case, it's regarding the same person again. He only sat beside a girl and talked to her, approached her. When the girl noticed, she finally turned her chair and faced me, in order to talk to me. The moment when she did so, he moved away. The fifth saddening case, he always confuses me. Although he said something like that to my friends, I know they're not as clear as me, I know I can feel him. I just need him to speak honestly, face-to-face to me. So that I know it's true... But, I guess I won't ask for the truth, I'm just too afraid to know.
I should stop thinking about lovey-lovey stuff now, I can... by collapsing myself in the world of school works. I wish he can sms me, he said he wanted to draw a line between us... my heart is aching again...
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