Final expression.

Every morning my eyes swell like...duh, like got worm inside my eye bags. It's almost 2pm by now, it's the first day after the school ends and also the first day of holiday. For a few moments, I had no feeling and no expression towards the school ending. Yesterday I even slept at 8pm until 12am. When I woke up, realized my heart was sinking - I cannot breathe and I cannot think, every image of myself and my friends start appearing - ouch, I cannot sleep. For many times I felt like weeping, my Form 4 life ended... It ends silently, the last day of school, most of my friends were not around, it's an empty classroom - if you shout at every corner of the school, you can hear your voice echoed -my classroom door locked. That time, I was so afraid Wei Jinn would absent. Not because I'm dependant but I supposed every one needs a friend to get a support? Jinn is my daily support in my life. Throughout this year, I shared many problems with her - sweet and bitter - everything. She's my best friend.

Am I the most lucky girl this year? I asked my younger sister had she ever realized my personalities changes? She said definitely, because I've been pampered by so many korkor, like mostly - Samkor. Every recess time, he would buy me drinks and food if I requested or even I simply requested to. Like, if my friends "bullied" me, he's the first to argue with them. Although we just played for fun, for many reasons I know Samkor treat me like a real sister. I'm Samkor sister - it's my greatest pleasure. Sawkor and Fhaikor, we seldom talked to each other, but every time I looked at them, the feeling is there and the brother-sister connection is always there. Deep down, I know it. Kenkor, he's very active, like some time he would automatic say "hello" to me even for many times I didn't say "hi~" to him. Some time, he would even said something nice to cheer me up. I liked to punch Kokkor xD He didn't like to Hi5! with girls neither to share-hand. All my brothers would Hi5 with me when we met each other but he will never do that, so I punch him =P Except.... last time during his Birthday, I held out my hand to share-hand with him at the canteen, I was like "shoot what am I doing?", what if he ignored me in front of the crowd, it was embarassing. In fact, he didn't. For the first time, he shared-hand with me. That's why I said, I love my brother.

I meet a lot of friends this year, of these - Jing Hui is becoming so close to me and she's my best friend, bf. I was lucky to see her yesterday, in the office. We talked a lot and for many times I know - she loved this year. Isn't because she have many good friends this year, like me? xD Jing Hui, Katherine and Hui Ying are my another group of super duper friends this year =D I really like them a lot because only when I'm with them, I found another pleasure - they're really positive and nice to mix up with. Bf Wei Jun told me before, he can't guess what I'm thinking because sometime I didn't join Ning Jin's group instead I was sitting somewhere alone or talking to another friends. I have to admit one thing, 我不喜欢太固定的社交范围. I like to try something new and something fresh :)

I know Ning Jin since Form 1, but we never talked to each other. But this year, we become a very best friend! Yay baby~ I know sometime I did something my friends are not comfortable with, but please forgive me, because I'm like that. So far, like only Jinn and Samkor accepted my weakness :'D I knew Xin Qi since last year, we gossiped a lot xP She's very alert and easily to mix up with, charming girl. She's CMS' super duper friend, too.

I love Pn. Lee, feel lifeless without her guideline at Add.Maths next year. For many times I know, she's my most favorite teacher; followed by Pn.Goh, Pn. Aziah and Form 1 Maths teacher.

This year, my level is dropping. People often say, exam is to measure how well you have done in your school yard. To some people, they have so many comments towards their own results; as for me, for these four years since Form 1, this year would be the least effort I'd exerted on my final exam. I couldn't complaints anything, what? It's my own problems for not studying well, what should I demand? It's rather hard for me to focus on one thing; between play and study - I chose play. My friends are good at last minutes study, I know I'm not that kind of student yet I still followed them. Honestly, it was my biggest mistake for choosing the wrong way of studies, but no pain no gain - I know my silly mistake now, so it's not too late to correct them, right? :D

Actually, when I took back my results and realized the Top 3 students in my class, I'm so proud of Kai Wen. He's kind of 不屈不挠，不畏不缩。自在必行，因为相信自己，势力由自己去见证。He's my professor, PRO at Add.Maths and Physics and science subjects - he deserved it :) Next year will be the whole new year to start everything new and to compensate my lost in this year.