Some reasons.

Remember last night, having difficulty to close my eyes, after all I got distracted by different sources of sounds and there were many kinds of them. Like, 'tick-tock tick-tock...'(my sister's alarm clock is beside my pillow); and suddenly, my glass cabinet liked being pushed and it was vibrating slightly, still in its rigid position; and the sound of the fast moving ceiling-fans; after a while, I can hear the lizard, making some noises outside my window, which was clearly noticeable. I wasn't afraid at first, but the glass cabinet like being pushed too much? Then I started to think to another way, that maybe some 'unknown' tried too hard? To show off its existence? Or they were just passing by? Ha! I wasn't sure, I'm kind of self-deception all the time.

I couldn't sleep!! I went into my brothers' room hoping the youngest one had some space left for me, so that I can sleep beside him instead of sleeping all alone by myself, being feared of any possibilities or dwell too much on things like that at night. Then I realized my elder sis was sleeping next to him, meant there was no space for me already! I walked calmly to my parents' room to see whether my mom was sleeping alone and I can sleep next to her... my dad was filling in the space! My mom heard me pushing opened the door, so she asked is there any problem?

“我睡不觉，我听到很多声音。”

I forgot what I said next, then closed the door and went back to my room with my light switched on. I heard a very loud footsteps, I knew it must be my dad, who was on his way here to comfort me or something. And I was right~ He seemed very concerned on my situation, and helped me to close all the curtains and later, brought along his pillow and bed sheet, and accompanied me throughout the night. He slept on the floor and I asked if he wanted to sleep on my bed and I was willing to exchange with him, he said it's enough and he asked me not to afraid. My dad is always my Lion King, he's so fatherly.

Next morning, feeling excited because it is my graduation day! I purposely made a hairstyle on myself :) I looked at my own reflection, feeling beautiful with myself. But, after some distraction which was caused by my hair, I finally combed it back to original, which was the pony-tail. I've taken a lot of photos with my friends, but... I felt something was missing and I wasn't satisfied of something. What is the reason??? I can't figure out any, maybe still feeling empty. I didn't really have mood to take photo, I was tired (not getting enough of sleep) and this morning, when I looked at the mirror and I thought my condition was good to take picture, but... perhaps I wasn't really right. Maybe I'm just not photogenic.

What is the most touching part today? I felt extremely neutral for every part of the day. Until I reached out to shake hand with Pn. Chye, then only a slightly feeling of nostalgia flooded me. She's my favorite teacher after all!