RRReflection

People and friends around you reflect who you are.

There's something I could not figure but finally get to understand the feeling of one's being treated unfriendly behind. Looking at you, we smile to each other and act as if nothing has happened. Sometime I'm even struggling within myself, between the reality me and the lonely me. In my sense of "loneliness" means that when I'm alone and being occupied with own thoughts, as if it's time to be in my own world. The sound of yourself is immensely and tremendously important. I can't describe how important it is to listen to your own voice. After having been through so many unhappy social problems, realised, it's actually a lesson taught by God. It's a very long way to go and God wants me to learn a life's lesson throughout my journey to a better adulthood. Perhaps when I get mature later, looking back, it doesn't seem regretful, instead, meaningful.

It doesn't taste good, it tastes rotten within. I hear my voice telling me you got to let go and move on; another voice of myself: No, they don't worth you to be struggling here, if this is the way they're, let them be, they don't worth it, forget about the friendship; another voice: impossible they treat me that way, may be I can try to solve the problems slowly and they must realise their mistake. AND THEY SHOULD APOLOGISE TO ME!

It doesn't make any sense. If she still likes him, go on, why involved me? If she wants to play ambiguous with him, or if he wants to philander with her, GO ON!! I've had enough with it.

It's Wednesday, Hari Raya Day!

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