Bitter sweets

I can somewhat smell the thick chinese Jerky and new year biscuits in the air of thoughts. It's getting stronger and stronger, I can somewhat hear the rhythmic sounds of the firecrackers playing in my mind. When I was young and lived in Cheras, firecrackers and chinese dried meat seemed to be the only things we concerned. And ANGPAU!! That time computers were not widely used in my area yet, it did not seem to be an allure to any parties, we were all living healthily and had a healthy and cheerful neighborhood back in Cheras.

Two years ago, I was working in Superfun Kindergarten and learned to deal with kids. I love kids. I want to protect them. That time I was thinking, if i make through the way of becoming a doctor, I will become a pediatrician, I even imagined myself giving a free treatments to all the poor kids out there, imagining myself working in rural areas in China, African... helping the kids. Haha！I can't be a doctor anyway, when reality came to break my hopes into pieces. I have no that much of money to study doctoral course and I'm not a genius, I admit it; but, I have got the helpful soul. In my family tree, no one else has been a doctor, in the years to come, when I've worked hard and saved enough money- believe it or not - I will cultivate my youngest brother into the route of becoming a doctor, provided he wishes it.

It's like a karma. Two years ago, I kept telling myself it's no way (NO WAY) to become a lawyer because I wanted something to do with medicines, pills, helping the patients... My father wanted me to study laws, with my sister and I denied. But, I'm defeated by the reality, in a way that I broke my promise and finally decided to study law. I'm preparing myself for a non-science course to take.I'm still keeping STPM science reference books with me, so that in the years to come when I suddenly play with my memory and remembered some sciences, I will have a reference; so that when my brothers ask me about sciences and math, I still know how to answer them because I still got the reference books. I love science. I love CHEMISTRY. I love BIOLOGY although I thought I hated it, I changed my mind. I love MATH. I love all those SUFFERING in Form 6. It's choking me yet bitter sweets. I loved two GUYS in Form 6. I miss KASTURI LIFE. I miss those HEARTBREAKING moments.

Collecting all the feelings with me, and I stand my ground promising myself, in 2013, it's never going to happen to me anymore. I'm a girl with dignity.

Thanks to Phyllis who shared this on Facebook ;)

Goodbye 2012! 


Thank you for reading. Off to Harcroft now, my grandmom can't help feeling excited and proud of me becoming the teacher there Hehe :)

A'Famosa

I can skip school on MONDAY! Monday is the most depressing day, I feel so down to go back after two days of week-break T^T

Yesterday was Sunday, my family and I went to Malacca, first to visit my sister, next to watch a final competition of the International Chinese Debate~! I first thought it would be very boring actually. It has been a long time since I had been in A Famosa, can't recall much, but still can imagine and smell the atmosphere there, the moving people and a big gun carriage, and I bought a musical instrument for myself, don't really know how to play and I guessed I'd lost it.

It should be a long way to walk upstairs there, but it never occurred to me that there is a diverge road in that area, or should I call it a garden? It wasn't my imaginary A'Famosa!! There are three paths of road there, and we traveled the one which the in charge people had instructed and pointed the direction to us... Maybe my imaginary AFamosa is on the other road.

WOW! I thought the building was old-classic (and in fact it was) and should be a little bit shabby, but it turned out to be very high-class and a bit of Europe-style historical building.

And I saw my sister standing there! In her formal (and quite unusual) dress, she looked all grown-up and beautiful. I saw two handsome (+smart) boys also, wah so shy. This was a final death competition between a University in China and Singapore! 四川大学 VS 南洋大学.


A short way to the hall.
My mom and dad^^
Gahhhahaa


Why do we have to wait so long for almost every event that we're participating in?





It was an utterly grand competition actually. RTM was there, recording, whole Malaysia will see it ON 31st July 2010. Watch out! maybe my face was in the camera there! and I'm so shy!

GOSH!!! Bloody hell I saw two TV8 artists there!!! When 梁佑城 walked pass my seat, I can't help GASPING!!! "Wah!!! 明星leh, 阿真你看到了吗？？"

"哪里？...wah!!!" *pointing at his face*

He looked down at us. "HELLO!!!" *looking desperately at him for a friendly response*

He was busy and walked away quickly.

LAUGHED OUT LOUD!! I was laughing at my sister's response!! She was quite cute in her sense, wasn't she?

After that moment, I got very crazy, "我一定要跟他拍照！！！" I want I want　ａｎｄ I　ＷＡＮＴ！！　I sms-ed my sis and asked her to intro me some handsome boys!!! HAHA The following content was below:

Intro some lengzai 2 me leh... Despo now

李欣宜~ From 8TV~
Very shy actually...

Ahahaha~!! Actually I was playing fun, didn't really mean it (although 70% of me meant it....) I understand why boys like to know more beautiful girls, just like- we girls also like to know more handsome guys. In my own sense, I prefer smart-looking with a smart specs teenager boys. ANDDD must be taller than me by one head. Wahhh!! So man!! But, inside, I'm actually a very loyal girl :D Not self-praise! I can fall in love with a boy for 2 - 3 years or more...

So the participants joined in and had their seats in front, on the stage there. 4 from China U and 4 from S'pore U. Wahhh!!! S'pore participants got 1 handsome and charming guy! And China team got 1 handsome and intelligent guy and also 1 glamorous girl! The girl really looked like KHE SIN!! They looked serious on the stage and who knows they are actually very playful and interesting people behind?

They were so cool(!!!!!) on playing their own role!! I loved 正反二辩 and 反方三辩！And also正反一辩．They can speak very fluently and intelligently. I was so much jealousssssss and admire!! I should practice to speak more formal Chinese, better origin from China tongue. Haha

He's so amusing!! I liked his expression^^

Smart guy Haha^^

The only two girls, left from S'pore; right one from China.

[I'm learning proper Chinese...]

WOW This guy! Super intelligent, his mind full of unsolved codes, when he spoke, nobody can really answer and reply.




The next day, we went to Malacca Parade, and we missed 4 pm bus!!! Because (!!!), because the bus driver turned around and around an area, and we didn't know that they're busy around that area. We waited for 1 hour for the bus and the bus driver was very generous, until half-way there, he took us to the Central and asked us hurrying up, we were so touched. I won't forget that kind man. We were late for 10minutes+, that old lady at the counter there never showed mercy to us, my sis kept begging and she gave no response. Wasted my sis's RM 36 (RM 12/person), so we have to purchase another tickets again, luckily the Chinese man was very kind and gave us discount, -RM2 though. That lady was a bloody asshole.

I'm going to buy these sets to my BARBIE DOLL!!!!
WAHH wardrobe! Kiko must be very happy!!

Diary #1

Today was extraordinary!! This was my ever FIRST time. When I reached school and giving the "MAMEE" to Y. huiying, I saw Jinn on the other side!! HOORAY!! I was so excited xD IF IF, should I really late to school, and the teacher's going to punish me, at least I would have Jinn and Y.Huiying with me! HAHA

Wow today's Add Maths lesson was crazy. Probability Distribution. >_> It ain't really hard, although I thought it must be extraordinary difficult. Just use some formulae and problems solved. But the equation was loooooooooooonngg. My friends were laughing incredulously and blindly and blankly at it.

I dunno which tittle should I put, guess if I have no idea next time, I will just name the post "Diary #x".

Good day!

Ever since this Hi-tea, I swear I will buy a jeans.

I actually loved Arab Suadi style, especially the way they wrap the scarf around their heads, or neck.


yo

You're my inspiration.

Thank you for your existence. I have never loved an American singer before. I guess I will get a singing course or a guitar lesson after my SPM, you're my first inspiration on music. Yes, I will love you more than I did before.

Miley Cyrus - Stay

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side

Oooh oh I miss you
Oooh oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay

Well I try to live without you
The tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God I'm torn apart inside

I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say

Oooh oh I miss you
Oooh oh I need you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
Always Stay!
I never wanna lose you
And if I had to I would choose you
So stay, please always stay
You're the one that I hold onto
Cause my heart would stop without you

And I love you more than I did before
And if today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed no one can take your place
It gets harder everyday

Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I'll always stay

And love you more than I did before
And I'm sorry that it's this way
But I'm coming home I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay, I will stay
I will stay

Hurriedly-go

It was a hurriedly-go-week~ Everything seemed to be very rushyyyyy. I don't know why, I feel like I'm very engaged, being embedded in snow, in fact I'm actually -
nothing.

HAHA!!

Last Saturday was a total rush-back. I had to practice my flute very intensively. Though I made a lot of mistakes during our Concert, it still went off smoothly, guessed because of the enormous sound of the drums and the big and loud instruments behind. My flute was a deep-mode-based, so completely got overwhelmed by pitchy-based-flutes behind :P

My lips kept vibrating when I was blowing the first song! A bit of nervous, guessed flute is not my type. Perhaps will choose other instrument to play, after SPM.

cute cute~~~
Handsome brother, my Prince!!!
Relative motion!!!
1...
2....
BURST our laughter!
*Serious*
*E-M-O*
*PRO*
[Overall]
Our conductor~

"Er...it's a lil' bit awkward ... should I smile?"
Okok...
"FIRST concert!!!!"
Chinese Orchestra Performers~

Another funny motion!!!

"Haizz...."
"Ahemm"
"wait... are you taking my pic?"
"huh really mah??"
YAY! Mission completed!