111 ♥

Coincidentally, it's my brother's and my bff Lilian's birthday today! :) So sorry it never occur to me that your Birthday is on the same date with my brother, Lilian! To tell the truth, I'm all eaten up by guiltiness and sorry, because... I've even forgotten about my brother's birthday! When it happened that my siblings kept mentioning about it, supposedly it should be something that knock me hard at the head but... awfully worse, I still doubt the date. It's 111 hello!! How can I have forgotten about it?? I'm nuts - you name it. #yesiam

I'm mad. I'm losing focus. I'm irresponsible. I'm not lovable. I'm selfish. I'm bad. I'm mean. I'm bad. I's mean.

What else? Ok, I feel slightly better now.

No, I'm very bad. And selfish. Sorryyyyyy. A thousand sorries still could not replenish the guiltiness in me. And even worse, I've forgotten about meeting up with Christie today! Just kill me. Such a promise-breaker, irresponsible, forgetful, selfish - me. All the while I've been thinking about only me.

R&J Walnut Cheesecake, if you want to give it a try,
tell me, I can drop you there and let's enjoy it together! :)

Celebrating my brother's birthday at Mr. Ho's Bistro @BandarPutri.
I supposed it's mostly filled up with olive oil??

Not all the time I'm photogenic. So in this very evening, I managed to capture some shots of mine.

     

      

It's 11st of Jan, how you feel? :)
Gotta date Lilian in the coming CNY ♥♥♥

Happy Birthday brother! I wish you grow up all healthy and happy ♥! MUAXXX

Happy Birthday Lilian! I wish you grow up all pretty and happy♥! Thanks for telling me that you're treating me as your BFF, in the world that you're finding a place to fit in, have faith in me for I can give you my loves ♥ Sincerely I do :)

One day I'm gotta leave everything behind and fly :)

Good night all! Thanks for reading :) 

Selfie To Welcome New Year.

I've changed, I've grown up, I can feel it.
How about you? :)
@2013

I woke up, I felt the same - cozy and comfortable in my bed. Realizing the day had passed by, the time had slipped by, this year had come to an end. I opened by eyes, gazed into the stationary furniture in my room, the light penetrated through my green curtain, making the whole environment greenery and comfortable to the eyes. I remembered the first thing I did was checking my mobile phone what's the time at the moment and unconsciously checked my WeChat, Facebook, Dayre, Instagram for notifications, such a busy kickstart, and the routine repeats almost every morning :)

I felt the serenity, I then downloaded many of Taylor Swift's songs. Realizing the time was ticking quickly, it was 11am and I quickly went downstairs to enjoy my breakfast - it's "roti canai" for today! Well, mom had bought a "chi cheong fan", I wanted to eat it so badly but then still decided to leave it for my elder sis, it's her favourite.

I didn't know it's already 4pm when I was enjoying my selfies with my brother's mobile phone. I was surprisingly looking good today! I thought I was quite photogenic at the moment, so I had fun taking pictures of myself :)

I have tutorials and lectures yesterday and today, in fact my Tuesday schedule was the most pack! I still decided to skip it, because after all, I want to spend the last day of the year with my family. I love you dad, mom, sisters and brothers... you're my everything, I'm working hard for you, at the same time to accomplish my materialism and dignity.

                        

Throughout the year, thanks for all the moments - memories shall be kept, for the joyful ones; and faded, for the miserable ones. Thanks for coming across my life; thanks for having me, to come across you, to shape me into a better person. I believe everyone comes into your life for a reason, and above all, I feel thankful for a life lesson learned.

Everything will be the same, still; the only think is that, I will not stop improving myself and changing myself into the character I want. When the heart says yes, everything will be a yes eventually; I trust the law of attraction, and I believe in the purest form and nature of attraction.

Follow me on my Instagram: joannecms; and Dayre: dayre.me/meanshan. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014!!!

Quick Review Of The Week.

Heyy bloggies! I'm back! When I say I'm back which means... I'm really back! I've enrolled in MMU since... two months ago, Melaka campus FYI. There I was, setting my foot on the foreign land which made me feeling a sudden spasm of nostalgia and homesick. I missed everything in Puchong although I'm not a Puchong-er. Come to think of it, before Lilian's departure for a Penang trip with friends; before Beatrice's migration and before my leaving to Melaka, we had been with each other for almost every night! We went to Pasar Malam in Sri Petaling and decided to buy the same Jiemei T's and a cowboy-like high-waist shorts; the next night when we 3 were wearing beautifully and walked into a simple chinese restaurant, Beatrice's brother actually laughed at us, he said we're funny, but what's more important: don't you think having to have dinner in simply a restaurant will make you feel more at home and a cozy feeling fills instantly up in you? ;) When your friend couldn't fit into a shorts and the next night, you'd pretended to buy ice-cream in the nearby Baskin Robin just to 'borrow' the bathroom. When the moment you can't pretend anymore, you had to really buy a cup of one-scooped ice-cream and 'borrow' the bathroom again.

These were the events happened to fall on Beatrice, Lilian and me. Every night we would have stayed until 11 o'clock, by the time I drove back on a quiet road yet familiar path, the clock eventually stroke straight at 12am. The next morning your dad asked to come back earlier better before 11pm due to the unsafe situation at night, you actually nodded but still came back home late anyway. That's me :P Underneath, I'm quite rebellious sometimes because I can somehow foresee it ;) Having to say it, my dad didn't scold me still. I love you my dad, for letting me being a young adult on my own!

  

It's so touching when someone's actually care and feel equally sad for you leaving... Thank you my sweetheart Prince Charming! Tonight I asked him whether he's ready for the opening of school, and whether... he's ready for not having me in the class. May be I should not have asked him about it because my sixth sense's telling me somehow... the answer must be making myself crestfallen, and helpless.

"I'm not ready. I'm not happy." He said.

I called my old friend, Kelvin. Just to wish him a Happy Wonderful Birthday!
That time I was actually chatting with my little prince and I
asked him to pardon me for a while for I wanted to call my friend.
Then.. was he jealous?? =PP

I had a lovely lunch with his family =) Who says teacher can't play badminton with the students outside
and who says teacher can't mix well with the students' family? I'm the first one then ;) 

In a world so big, thank you for loving a small person like me.
I instantly feel like... the world is very BIG for your love nourishes me! 

Talk about my life in MMU,

I didn't mean to say this, but I saw many bitches, who love to give bitchy stare. LOL!! Three girls are having make-up to Uni, then a group of girls stared at them in a bitchy way and started to gossip and staring and gossip and staring. Until the make-up girls had gone long, they're still bitchy-ly looked at their ways. Oh God just stop! Just let them. You can make-up as well, no need to stare at them that way.

Uni life is so immensely different from that of school life. I started to miss my secondary school life... at least I was still under the control of the school, at least I was still under its power, at least I didn't have to care so many things at all, especially wearing. In Uni, the girls compete for appearance, dressing, attractions, etc. Whenever you pass by a restaurant, the girls and boys will look up at you. It's just human's nature to look at passer-by, especially to those who haven't had a gf or bf yet.

My housemate said... If I've never build a wall in myself, I will have many admirers chasing after me. Then I told her that I'm in no hurry and I never want relationship at this time and I'm never ready for it. In Uni, I'm so ready for upcoming assignments/activities and courses. I want to get

FIRST CLASS IN LAW.

I want to cherish many friendships and ready to backpack with my sister in the coming semester break. I'm currently benefited myself by reading and spending time with my sisters and prince charming ;)

My breakfast on my first day : multigrains buns, popcorn chicken bites
and a cup of premix oat & cereal with soya goodness. 

My lunch on my first day! :)

And we had our dinner at NEW JUSCO Melaka!
The restaurant is "Organic Recipe" (y)

Thank you for reading!

I did it for STPM

I started to feel curious and wonder who will be visiting my Blog silently? Not to mention my followers and friends, I'm just wondering beside them, who else? Ha! :)

It's Ester Day today. Also, qingming day for my family, I mean Chong Family. It's 11 in the morning, very late now because I just came back from Maths. tuition, and you know, I didn't join my family this time. I feel like everything about this year clashed with my schedule, totally and utterly. For two times, I didn't visit my sister who was having National Service at Perak, because a. I wanted to practice speaking with Jac Lyn and that time MUET: Speaking Test was around the corner, stressed; b. Macrh EXAM was just in the next week, I can't go and I didn't want to. That day was Sunday, plus I have tuition every Sunday morning. Why everything falls on Sunday morning???

I have no regret, for not going for the qingming festival with my family. It's a short event. In fact, before I left my house door, I did a prayer to my grandfather in Heaven first, then to God.

"Grandpa, please forgive my unfilial. RIP in the heaven, may you bless my family and I for healthiness and bless me for my STPM."

Then, I face my God:

"God, please protect my grandpa in heaven. May you bless my family and I for healthiness and bless me for scoring straight A's in my STPM."

It's getting quiet.

We just sent my sis to the station at Kajang. Whatsoever, her campsite is in Perak. Under the roof, my house is getting quiet. Haihx! What a long way! We woke up 6 in the morning, started to head off to our destination by 7.30am, had our breakfast at Kajang, reached the registration site around 9am, then finally get back home at 10am+.

JLKN!!!! Nothing...



The reflection!! Can you spot my sis??



The moment I watched her walking into the bus, I wept. My sis is growing up, she's learning through the life process. And she's leaving me alone now...



With mom =)



Even if I said it for a millionth time, I'm still going to say the same thing! Drink more water and please take care!!



A journey of life



Goodbye Time.

A bonding

First of all, HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! It's a very down school day, get to know my position in the class and ahem, I'm certainly OK with it, the only thing I dislike most is when friends around like to make comparison and some more will analyse out who's better, who's the best. For God's sake, we're already 18-years-old, do people's marks satisfied you? Or you want to be better than others just by comparing the marks/ position in class? Anything about it, don't count me in.

I received Yie Kin's wish today! I was sooooo delighted! She's my best friend, always and still, never change :) My cousin Penny was already here when I come back and I was so happy to hear her making noise under the roof! She kind of likes to stick around me and it does make me feel like a big sister and hell yeah, I love being a big sister to anyone =]

Wow! Guess what! My Johor relatives pay a visit to my family and right now, my jie just fetched them to visit my cousin in Puchong. They stay in my house for a night and will go back tomorrow =( Long time didn't see them, the big brothers are still unchanged and the big sister is still pretty as ever.

Once more, Happy Mooncake Festival!

With my cousin Penny girl and my jie :)

XOXO

Something within

Recall last night, I couldn't figure out solution for the MATHS questions, I called to my Xue Ge for rescue and ended up having a little old time play with my younger sister ;)

From this angle, I can't ignore the fact that we look... pretty alike!

DIG MY NOSE

If you believe E.T.

Gene problem, I can roll, she just can't.

Happy Lucky Day Everyone! ^o^"