I get it! Thank you for the wishes!!

Neither will I look back.

Not every friend can accept you. I think I tried too hard, I'm so tired, I will let go. I have two friends, who I thought will become a very good friends of mine, after all those ups and downs, we forgave each other, I soon realized... they haven't really accepted a character like me. Do you think it's threatening when you see your girl friend is wearing so beautifully even to the tuition centre whereas you only wear a plain T and shorts? Do you think your friend will jealous of you when you're so attractive to guys? Do you think your friend will want to become good friend with you when you look just beautiful enough to make them insecure?  As a girl, do you? Do you think you're someone who will not change yourself to fit into a group but follow own's heart? And finally your friends feel that you're not on the same line with them and you're not being supportive? Do you think at this moment you should stand on your own ground and remain yourself and let go? (YES)

Do you like it when your friend is so reassuringly and so confidently and so jealously reveals the shopping centre where you bought your dress in front of other friends? Do you think a girl is jealous of you when she looks at you from UP to DOWN secretly, quietly, and praise no words at it but can't help sticking an eye on you? 

I thought I was over-thinking, but it happens all the time until I feel like I'm not the sensitive one. I used to treat them like a very GOOD friend of mine, like when they're absent, I would text them and ask if they feel better and why didn't they go to school, and so on. It's my choice, I don't expect them to treat me the same way, and I never expect friends to treat me the same way. 

I learned a life lesson. I'm thankful at the end of the day, I know which group of friends will be supporting me, as always. At least I know I have this group of friends. 

I never expect this. May be next time you should not expect for anything, so that everything turned out to be very surprising to you! I feel like I'm still floating and embracing myself in yesterday mood. You know what! I was wearing the cartigan and sleep for the whole night long! I wasn't expecting any gifts, because I just wanted to have a nice dinner with my FORM 6 friends and then... they're just tooooo good, I was really really touched, especially when the guy gang handed me the cartigans they bought for me, that's so sweet!
Although some friends like Kogu, Kelvin, WaiChee, and Beatrice confirmed attendance in the Facebook event created by me, I was still wondering whether it's true or not, may be they can't make it last minute or may be they will forget about my birthday, who knows? BUT THEY TURNED OUT! Wai Chee represented the guy gang to give the present, it looked really RED, the thing inside, but when I opened it again at home, wow it's DARK PINK. One pink one black. Lilian and Beatrice gave me some really girly things which I TRULY LOVE. Especially Beatrice, I'm so thankful, the thing she bought is the thing I wanted in my whole life :ppp Well, may be you don't get what I said because you can hardly imagine what are the presents they gave!

All the girls really know me well, I received PEARL (OMG!!!!!!) necklace, crystal bracelet, a sexy black gown (from Lilian, my elder sister and her friends LOVEEE it, me too!), a box of fruit chocolates (from hy, fy & khailing) and a very princessy decorative from Beatrice~! The guys chose me two mature cartigans!

I'm soooo HAPPY~~~~~ I'm just.... touched T_T I wasn't expecting all these T__T

~Break The Spell, and You Will Be My Prince I Will Be Your Princess~

Thank you for coming! Thank you for spending your time choosing GREAT presents to me! I'm so thankful and grateful and BLESSED! Thank you T_T JiaYou in STPM together!!

Continue firing ♥

Back from a tired soul. Guess what! I slept at 3 in the morning yesterday... or today? Pengajian Am is a real mad paper like I told you! No matter what, I think it's WORTH it! It worth my panda eyes and pimples since before that, confessionally, I rarely touch PA books. That time I just managed to do a few questions but at the end of the day, 4 out of 5, I got it wrong. I closed my exercise book then

I forgot what I've just learned.

You know what, even though I got almost all wrong, I was still reluctant to learn the mistakes. Yes I read through the questions again but I can hardly remember it. Because, I know by the end of the day, or the day before the EXAM, I know I'm still ABLE to pull myself from the shore. I believe there's a hidden power within me and yes I'm RIGHT. I always know myself haha! Compared to last time, this time I'm more confident with my answers. Much more confident indeed! I used different method to study PA, I know I can nail it. Some of my friends utilized their time by doing MATH instead of revising today's subject, PA, but I seriously think that... unless they think they can score more than 50 out of 60? Otherwise I don't think it's a wiser choice. It's just my personal opinion. You can't just ignore PA paper, hello if you failed your PA you CAN'T get STPM C-E-R-T-I-F-I-C-A-T-E, you have to follow the new semester system and restart everything all over again; either retake PA papers next year, or you go for FOUNDATION/ A-LEVEL/ DIPLOMA. Otherwise, you're wasting your whole lots of time.

So, PA is dead important.

My beautiful quotes and pictures will be LOST, my laptop is... "sick" =(

EXAM week :: Day 1

After a while, after 30minutes of journey from my school to my home...Hey you know what! PA 2 is real MAD!! This Pengajian Am is dead challenging and mad! We need to write two long essays, answer two short comprehension questions, plot one complicated graph, and interpret the chart or table; all within three hours straight! So mad so MAD

BUT I LIKE IT.

Today's paper fired the soul in me. I know I can do this. Tomorrow's Chemisry Papers. I can do this I can do this. Keep on firing, give me energy!

Don't you think it's so lucky to have a different races friend, some more we're considered best friend? :) with Anis.

ENERGY

In the eyes of mine

Hello~ I'm signing in.

Yesterday, it was my first time joining Batu 8 Sports Day. My group and I was assigned to be the "pengadil" who plays a role in determining whether the players are ready to get set, and go! It's such a sunny day. Early in the morning, I saw many pretty young girls wearing different costumes on the spot, the marching teams were... to be honest, ain't better than Seksyen 4's. The shouted like no energy, they marched like lifeless army. I still think that the Commander should be a guy since guy has a louder and deeper voice. PBSM commander in Batu 8 is the same with Seksyen 4's - a girl takes over it. Well, Seksyen 4's commander looks more commendable and murderous, and fierce-looking. I remember one famous commander in my formal school, Stephanie Ng. Wow... She can really shout and lead a marching team, never felt shy or uncomfortable with the way she is. If I were her, I probably would be utterly shy and embarrassed. The worst part of the PBSM in my current school was.. the commander spoke in Chinese when she commanded. I mean, yes we can see all of them are Chinese, but you're in a national school, we have other races to consider.

I played with the white flag. I chose a spot where it's far away from the people, but close to the spectators. The moment you raised up your white flag means the athletes are ready in position. I made a few mistakes though *sigh. You know what, the silliest mistake I ever done was,

a girl was asking me anxiously where she can get the PBSM and I replied something STUPID

"Oh! This is why ya?"

wth of course it's either someone fell unconsciously or someone is in another state of urgency! Thanked God I realised my silly mistake then very quickly, I pointed their location to her, PBSM's just very near, in fact they were shading among the people, to readily help those who are in need. *Applause to their strategy!*

I was standing in the middle of the battlefield for hours, I was willing to do something my friends weren't even offer to help because I had nothing to do on the spot, as a Form 6 senior, I thought I should contribute assistance to teachers, I wouldn't want to be hanging around and doing nothing.

The athletes were quite dramatic here. Ouch. In my formal school, I never came across with any athletes who faint or losing balance at the finish-line, or worse, in the middle of athletic track. When I was doing my duty, a malay girl suddenly fainted and fell right beside my feet. So close!! It's like, I was in the centre of attention, which made me quite uncomfortable since I can't help anything except to lend them my fan and, I did help to fan her :P Why didn't they get enough stamina since they represent their houses to RUN in this long-way runaway???

*

I come out from a broken-hearted. Time is healing me and teaching me valuable life lessons. Because of this, I promised myself that I'm not going to step into relationship anymore.

The guy I liked will never like a girl like me.

Life.

Signing off =)

You're worth more than gold.

PBSM held a cooking competition today. I was kinda exhilarated because I love new ideas and I embraced creativity. At first I was a little bit ambitious because I have a

MUST-WIN attitude!

I got the second place in a cooking competition with a theme: Western Food in Secondary 4. Since I love chicken chops, French fries and those with high calories, I, appeared to be -which was expected- the only one who served chicken chop. I begged nobody was as heedful as me, because normal contestants favour convenience and cost of the ingredients. I, in another case, do not emphasize much on the price, just love to do something I love. I should've gotten the FIRST you know! I was VERY confident that time, in fact, OVER confident. I thought I lost at the questioning part as one of the judges as me "hmm the mushroom is delicious, what's the brand?" oh bravo! How was I supposed to know???

It's Campbell. Darn, I will always remember it!!!

Sometimes, when you show your passion and must-win attitude, you will or may sparkle the opponents, or have them having a burning sensation inside out : they want to take you down, either! Wahahaha *laughing like Queen Raveena* Hey no way, because you 'met' me ;D

During our preparation, initially we were quite clumsy. My teammates kept asking me what should they do and what now, just afraid of time wastage and awkward moment. I thought I didn't direct them correctly, that's why it was quite a mess. Now I know my mistake, when you're to lead a team. Five of us in a group. Well, I should skip talking about this part because I thought it was quite a sore point of mine.

Quite frustrating part is... I didn't get to melt the chocolate evenly. White chocolate and chocolate (well, you should know the difference haha!). Is there a technique to melt it evenly? Why was there butter-like liquid appeared around my white chocolate during the process of melting?? I expected them to melt the brown chocolate first and I forgot to tell them about that, so... Anyway, my fruits weren't coated with chocolate. Such a COOL idea but we ran out of time and lack of technique in handling melting chocolate.


Fruits satay~!


Well-decor sushi! Credits to Mei Hui!


My friends were looking interestingly at our side dish and dessert. After teachers finished judging, or even before that, they already set their eyes on it so that they can eat first :P Teachers' comments were quite good. The only problem was with the Malay judge who thought the white chocolate was way too sweet and the strawberry was way too sour. Anyway, I did my best.

Friends, forgive my leadership. I enjoyed leading a team, perhaps lack of planning.

Teacher's Day and I danced!

For many times, a friend of mine asked me "what courage take you to dance??" I begged many of them were shocked to see me dancing on stage? Ha! I never danced before, that's for sure. I never thought of performing especially in front of hundred people. I never. But, I dreamed. I dare to dream. I jump across the layers of bricks ahead, hinder the suspicious looks of everyone, be confident, and, be myself. Ta-daa! I wasn't sure whether my appearance surprised anyone but most importantly, I dare to do something I never expected before.

DARE TO DREAM!







Initially, the list came out and it happened that my group was in the Slot 1. Then, we arranged ourselves pretty much well, I mean the practices, schedule, etc. The day before we perform, one member in my group was absent because she went for a blood test and... she got LOW blood pressure. Thursday afternoon, we practiced for one final round, she cannot take it any more, she felt weak and sick. She didn't join our practice after that. Last minute. My leader went home, Jac went to submit CD to the teacher-in-charge, and she told us the other group changed slot with us. Well, nobody asked us. I was pissed off! Utterly. I didn't talk much about it to anyone because I didn't want to bring up the issue since I have friends in the other group.

If Puan Mary were here, she definitely would help us. Because since the beginning itself, Puan Mary liked us very much, she was so happy to find out that we're dancing! Now, Puan Mary wasn't here, it's as though people took advantage and discriminated us. We didn't perform on Hari Anugerah, Puan Mary told us to MAKE SURE we will perform on Teacher's Day.

An ugly old teacher changed our slot. We have a low blood pressure member; they had something to do after recess according to their reason; between these two, a slut chose the second.

It's been distracting me since early in the morning. I can't believe this. I have friends in that group, we're in the same class, why was it so difficult to inform us at the first place? I thought I'm friendly kind of person, sometimes I don't talk to them it doesn't mean I'm cold to them, it's just my personalities and it's about mood and topic discussed. I still love them. Just that, I personally thought they should have informed us first. Anything at least they should have approached us and discussed with us.

Because of the sudden "sparks" and unbelievable issue, we took it still and it's what made our group stronger and stronger. All the way I was thinking that it must be a blessing in disguise. I sincerely believed so. And when we performed, we killed it! You know, we're unpredictable. The teacher bullied us. We nailed it right in front of your eyes and did you see that? Yes, that's a Teacher's Day gift to you.

Orientation day.

Drinking a cup of Hotlicks and here I am ;)

Whether you know this or not, today is the registration day for the lower sixes. Early in the morning, when I got down from my mom's car, I saw Samuel walking in his familiar path and when he saw me, he just ran into me and we talked and laughed all the way till we reached our classroom. Such a cheerful kickstart of the day. Feeling excited, I was looking forward to familiar Seksyen 4-ians. I was in charge in a counter with a fellow friends and too bad, feeling quite unfair, they chose the middle counters whereas Jac and I had to sit at the corner counter. Such a hot and unfriendly position we had. I brought along my Chemistry Revision book and thought I can revise it with Jac during the period of expectancy or pausing, too bad she had to finish her Maths homework first. I felt my lips was dehydrating again. I didn't wash my water bottle well, it's so dirty around the opening mouth of my bottle, and it smelled stink. I can't drink it, luckily I still had my favourite candy - green tea Halls with me. At least candies can help to secrete some saliva for me to lick my lips (I know licking lips is definitely not a good practice but I just can't drink the water@@).

There's this cute little junior, she wanted to take a photo of Jac and I because according to her, we're the first ones she talked to. She's so daring and hyperactive, like really taking out her camera and asked for our photo. Too bad I just felt embarrassed and SHY, then I dodged. I thought she didn't manage to take my photo? ;)

I like to present my Blog in words, pictures are good but need times and efforts to take and upload a nice picture. Well, tomorrow has three periods of Bio, moody..



Birdy, you always cherish me.

I'm the President, it's my responsibility.

I want to be a bad girl.

Seriously.

There's this teacher, who is so ridiculous. She always doesn't make sense. Like in the class, she always talks nonsense and says something very girlish or something off-topic, clearly showing immaturity at her her age. Read my previous post, I think she's really angry with me. I know deep down, she never like me. I'm the president of the Form 6 Library. And very unlucky, she's the teacher-in-charge for my BATCH. What the hell. She's always limiting me, and manipulating me, overpowering me. It's OK if she wants to overpower me, but, does she really know how to run or operate a library systematically? I know she can manage things well, like, she gave us free coloured papers and a plastic to wrap our exercise books nicely and neatly in place. What a good idea, but, you know, we're FORM 6 students, I almost turn 19 now, you can't possibly keep instructing me to follow and OBEY you. They gave the power to me, I have the responsibilities to play my part well. I did it, just that the teacher isn't satisfied.

Because you know what, I'm very daring, I don't think it's necessary to inform every trivial matter or issue to you.

You're just

a supervisor.

I listen to your advice, but I don't necessarily have to follow, take it or not taking it, it's up to me. Because all the while,

I AM THE PRESIDENT.

Between you and I, trust me or not, the librarians will choose me. I interact with them. Every day, I have duty for them. It's ME that organizing the library. I transformed the library for everyone's convenience. Now, my librarians are very comfortable to duty in the small library, have it not been for the design and transformation I made, the library might be mess-looking, the librarians wouldn't have the mood to work, the students wouldn't be interested to borrow the books and worst of all, the library would be like an OFFICE. I feel sick when thinking of the previous design of the library.

I told my dad about my situation. If she wants to swift me,

get ready to see my father in pejabat.

My dad is all ready. So am I.

There's this teacher..

I'm irritated. My library teacher is irritating sometimes. Like today's case, we were told to take a group picture. All the way she's just worrying about her make-up because it's just going to melt under the HOT sun. My members were waiting for me too, they're exposing themselves under the damn hot sun whereas the teacher was shielding in the other side, standing in the corridor, must be mumbling or complaining to another teacher. When I reached the spot, panting, but still apologized to the teacher. Although she said "tak apa", I knew she cared or HATE it. She ignored me afterwards. She asked my secretary to pass a message (about meeting) to me. Where's my stand?? She should have informed me at the first place. I'm the PRESIDENT. She's emotionally influenced. According to my friend, teacher always says her English sucks and she hates Science Stream students because we can speak better than her.

I was losing one member, still! All are girls, I forgot about the only Malay guy. I asked teacher about it and she said "tak apa, cepat selesai, panas ni." What the hell I was speechless. She always doesn't make sense.

R&D presentation

It's our Research & Development presentation today! MUET group was the first team and my group was the third to present. I saw watermelon in the canteen, he didn't wish my luck today, yesterday one not counted Hehe. I'm the secretary of the Club R&D and I was busy, no, when I wanted to engage myself into document works, Puan Mary, my R&D supervisor stopped me, she wasn't happy seeing me doing my stuff because I should have stood in front and get ready with other groups. Well, there I go, left my works aside by asking other committee to help me.

I stood in front of the ready-to-be-seated crowds. WOW I felt great. I wasn't entirely nervous, I didn't feel nervous at all until the first group started... All the Upper Sixes had settled down themselves and the mike amplified her voice so loudly that I started to worry. It's weird listening to my amplified voice since I can hear my voice clearly without a mike... I was imagining that time. I already knew the content of their presentation so I didn't pay much attention to their talks; instead, I was figuring out how to present myself to people and trying to think their ways of presenting their slides. Rhen Jeat's hand was shaking, he showed to me. He looked too calm, still.

Our panel of judges were PRO-English Puan Cheah, Super strict Puan Laurette and fussy Puan Jolyena. Biology teacher wasn't there!! I meant she wasn't our panel of judge because before that we were told that she's one of our judges and thanked God finally they substituted her with Puan Laurette (I dunno why)@@" I know it's good and it's such an honour to have her but... she always asks tricky questions and to be honest, I'm really not good at answering questions, I either get it out of points or don't know their questions. Seriously. I turned blind eyes at it especially when you asked me questions directly in front of 70+ people.

Talk about my lips now!!! My lips was absolutely and COMPLETELY DEHYDRATED! I dunno why it suddenly occurred to be like this! I was so... a bit helpless, for a moment I really thought of pausing a while so that I can drink water but, I can't, time was running, we were told to finish everything in 10 minutes times, it's no way to stop for a while otherwise I would have gotten my group and myself into trouble! My lips was very VERY dry and somehow I really felt like to "STOP" because my tongue was dry as desert. That's the best way to describe the dryness, it was so dry and dry. I should have put on my lips balm! For many times, I paused for a few seconds so that my audience can absorb what I was talking, at the same time, I can have my time to lick my lips and moisturising it. It's scientifically proven that when your lips is dry you can't lick you lips, but... I have no choice. All eyes ON me.

Many thanks to my partner Jac Lyn, she rocked Q&A session! She's so entertaining and her answers did make sense. I'm that kind, who don't entertain people but like to be entertained. Luckily the Upper Sixes gave me response when I asked them questions! Thanks to Ivan Toh who “pakat" with me in answering my first question :) And many thanks to Wai Chee who likes to voice out his opinions in the public, he helped us to lengthened the time as well. Many thanks to YHY and other friends too! And, most importantly, Puan Mary! Our mother-like supervisor! She always made sure everything was going to be perfect! She didn't want to have any SPELLING mistakes when our names and tittles were written on the white board. She always double check for us and even asked to put on a tie, threw a lot of questions to us so that we can find out the answers and answer the panel of judges. She shared some tips as well. When we were presenting, she was sitting behind and paying attention to us. She showed me some gestures when my voice was soft, etc. She's quite strict before that because she kept correcting and limiting us this and that; but she's motherly :) Wow! Such a day!!

I can focus on my studies now! No more burden :)



Good luck to the coming groups! Just learn to enjoy it :)

So long never heard from me right? :) Good news, I didn't fail any subjects except BIO. Bad news, no no, sad news, watermelon didn't talk to me these days, he didn't wish me night. But, he had the intention to wish me he said. So, considered good news..?


*pause*


I still feel like... nothing to talk right now. I just woke up. It's Saturday but my school had the replacement so I had school today and it was tiring. My R&D slides got many negative comments from my supervisor because of the choice of our colours and the colours do not match with the background. Poor. I'm lazy and reluctant to do because I've had enough of it. Before this, MUET distracted me partially; now, here comes R&D. When can I fully concentrate on my studies? I need to pull up my grades. Seriously.


为你，我奋斗。

A closer look at my friends.

I like Christie Soo. In terms of "friend". He's so friendly and helpful. I don't know how to show my appreciation to him because he always helps me throughout the moments. Like in the BIO LAB, if I don't understand one thing, I will ask him and he always tries his best to look up the answer for me. If he doesn't know or the answer isn't in the book, he will help me to ask teacher or just says dunno in a helpless and sorry tone. I'm so thankful and grateful to him. Every morning I have to seek help from him as I need someone who reaches school earlier to carry a bundle of newspapers from the guard house in the front door to our Form 6 building block, and he never complain anything. Don't worry, I will ask other friend to take turn with him so that he's not the only one to carry the heavy newspapers every morning. He's too humble. He's the smartie pie in my class. He never show off his knowledge, he's just sitting quietly there and waiting for friends like me to ask him questions. PRO. What makes me bring up a topic like this?

Jac and I talked to Jun Wei today, during our R&D MUET session. He's so mature... I didn't notice a person like him when I was Form 5, I see him very clearly now. He's a man with huge responsibilities on his shoulders. He talked about his study methods and it freaked me out to learn how dedicated and committed is this guy, a guy in my class, my classmate and my friend. He said his family background pushed him to study this hard, otherwise, die. STPM is his only hope to continue his tertiary education in the future. Here, I wish all THE BEST to Jun Wei. I wish him successful and I know he can do it and hit it. He even said, you have to be faster than others, otherwise you can't survive in the society. As according to him "Do your best, beat the rest."

I'm scared now. I have to set a benchmark and follow him up. Otherwise I will get eliminated from the class, too.

Human's heart

Not bad right? After all, I'm just blessed.

He had an honest talk to me. We had a heart-to-heart talk in the Chemistry LAB. All my doubts faded as I listened to him. He confessed his unhappy and saddening past, especially his high school life. What courages took him to speak all these to me? I was shocked despite myself. He told me his biggest secret (I'm not sure whether it's that "big") but, he trusts me. That's why he spoke everything honestly to me. I'm very sorry to his past, at the same time, I realised: homo sapiens is unpredictable. The way one portrays oneself is so different from one's inner-self. One may look very interesting and knowledgeable, but when one speaks, you may be blew away by one. That's only an example, I don't mean him BTW.

He said I'm like his family member. I thought I would say "Oh crap!" to myself but I didn't. He said the past makes him afraid to start a relationship, plus he wants to concentrate on his studies. His reasoning is MUCH better than saying "you ain't my cup of tea". LOL I thought it would hurt me when I feel like he treats me just like a sister but I didn't entirely hurt when I find out the truth behind. Every guy feels like protecting me because I look small and I'm charming. Haha! After all, he's just not ready. I appreciate it when he really treats me like a sister. A guy feels like protecting me but the guy won't fall in love with me. And, I'm not ready to start a relationship either, should enjoy being a sister and being spoilt by big "brothers" :P

Every one deserves a chance, right? He has changed so much and I asked him "at least you learnt from your mistake right?" "Yes, a lot."


Human's heart is so fragile. She's my GOOD friend, that's why when she cries, I feel like crying too. For quite a long time, I don't taste the feeling of having a true friendship. Now I found you. Hope we can stay stronger in the future or, NOW! :)

Blessing in disguise

I just finished the very nerves-racking exam of all time! I had my MUET: Speaking test today and two examiners from other state/school gave marks based on our 'points', 'language' and one more forgotten requirement.

Talk about the examiners first. One is an Indian; the other is a Chinese. The first time I saw the Indian examiner, she's so sweet, cute, friendly and warm. The way she portrayed herself and nodding with us while we spoke - made us calm and warmer. I don't get it. The Chinese examiner didn't even smile to us. She's a little bit tough, perhaps she's just expressionless, she's not that bad. I was scolded (slightly) by her because I sat in the wrong position, thanked God Khai Ling(Candidate B) realised it and very quickly we exchanged our place. Having said that, the examiner actually saw it, so she just "tegur" us a little bit and I said "I'm so sorry!".

I thought being the first person to speak is SCARY and most disadvantaging, because the first one may have no enough time to jot down all the important points. Nevertheless, I did it. Pretty well this time. No. In case, this was the BEST performance I ever gave during MUET: Speaking. Normal day, in the class, I only managed to speak within 1 minute. This time I utilized and used 2 minutes completely until the Chinese examiner even said "Time's up. Please make a conclusion." I was like WOW, giving myself a big claps.

Usually, the first to speak will leave impression to the examiners. I kickstart the group discussion as my group members and I already organised the flow of our discussion. Did I speak too fast or too "aggressively"?

After all, it isn't bad to be the first to speak :)

*Smile :)

Cheers. I know I have a very unorganized essay, and weak development of ideas. Somehow, my language is still GOOD. Puan Mary praised me for the third time now, I'm so delighted! Today is Puan Mary's day because she made my day. Of course it's not just because of her compliment, she poked fun at me-.-

She poked my stomach three times, lightly. Because I was talking loudly to my friend and said "不是！不是 (No! No!)". She smiled at me and poked my tummy and asked "what 'bu shi' 'bu shi' " Well, she has her own sense of humour, isn't it? She's an indian, my English teacher and my R&D supervisor BTW.

So funny.

Wish you happiness :)


P/s: I've changed my Blog's playlist. It's more to LOVE, I simply like the melody - not that I like to be EMO!

Down

I'm feeling so down again. I promise I won't mention anything like this in my Blog. So, I won't mention. I'm just feeling sad, lost, so down and down. I look at myself in the mirror and repeat the same sentence

"I don't care."

I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care. I don't care.

Repeat as many as you like, so that you can feel better. It works on me!

Irritating.

There's this fat guy who is getting on my nerves. I'm extremely irritated now! It's OK if a guy is FAT, the problem is, he is LAZYyyyy and LAME.

He liked me. I hate guys text me and ask “我可以追你吗？ (can I go after you?)”. First, I'm choosy and picky, for a million times, I wont like a guy who isn't my cup of tea. I need an ambitious and self-motivated guy, especially those CONFIDENT one. I saw Phyllis Facebook status saying:

‎"Confidence is sexy. When you see a man who's completely comfortable in his skin, it puts you at ease. You feel safe. You feel like you could trust him. You feel protected. You also feel like you can be yourself because nothing is going to rock him either way."
-Blake Lively

He stalked me on Facebook. I always see his name on my "Friend List" for several weeks, so it proves that he's been "visiting" my profile, perhaps very frequently.

I HATE TO BE STALKED

BY IRRITATING GUY

LIKE HIM.


DREAM ON, I wont like him. He's self-centred and not gentleman at all. He was asked to be in charge of one of the MPPPU BIRO, he didn't want to take the responsibilities because it's boring, he requested teacher to change the "job" for him by substituting it with my FRIEND without asking her! What was this??

I just posted on my another long-lost friend's wall (FB), then he suddenly interrupted our conversation there and started another topic. WTH?? He stalked me! That's why he continued my post there!

I'm so irritated! I don't even smile when I see him. I can look straight into his eyes but without any expression. I hate this kind of guy.

IRRITATING.

English, be mine.

Yesterday, Pn Mary just asked us to prepare several points for the graph analysis. Well, I finished it last night, used more than an hour, which isn't a good sign. I should complete my task within 30 minutes, but... first attempt of the year right? Early in the morning, we discussed the graph. Since only Jac Lyn and I finished ours, teacher asked us to write ours on a "mahjong" paper because she wanted to correct our mistakes, discuss, and learn from the mistakes. I got a Band 5 for my trend. I was so exhilarated! But... in overall, I just got a high Band 4 because my essay is lack of key features. I was so close to there! Pn Mary praised me for the second times

"your language is good."

That's the only thing that really made my day! :) English is very important to me. By saying that, it means I have a good foundation at English, just need to power up my VOCAB. I want to improve my English, I genuinely wish so.